The year is winding down and the ‘spirits’ are flowing steadily these days as I wind myself down for the night. Alcohol will be the first go. Period. I need to break that habit once and for all and find a different reward for a long day ending. It’s causing me to night eat again with winter sweets in the home and it does absolutely nothing for weight loss on its own. It’s not like I get drunk or passed out- horrific etc., but it does not mix well with down feelings, being tired and feeling cooped up.
Depression: I didn’t *think* I was depressed, but I have been finding comfort in food- and I think that’s due to all I take on. I need to tackle that before I even think about just replacing it with exercise. Maybe “depression” isn’t the right word.
The New Year is of course symbolic. We all know the previous year doesn’t ACTUALLY go away and renewal happens at the stroke of midnight. But symbolically I do need to purge the new adopted bad behaviors towards myself and perk up.
I am not going to make a list of what I should and shouldn’t do- I can’t approach myself like others do. My life is delicate and I do have to be more mentally and physically strong than most.
SO if that’s a new years resolution list… that’s mine. I’m going to cross that off my end of year agenda… YAY!
