Yesterday was a tease. The weather was kissing my face as I took my daily walks, relaxed in the early evening and planned my ensemble for today. All traces of the December storms were a thawed memory that melted away and once more I was enjoying the warmth that the past few days made promising.
I was fooled!! Today cold ripped through the area once more. The kind of cold that clings to the wind in order to punch you in the guts. It gnaws at your ears and exposes your raw nerves as it slaps around you face and drop kicks you into screaming “NO MORE!” With the exception of being indoors, there’s no escape from the cold, wet, windy torture that makes you long for the beach life you’ve only experienced via vacations… if at all.
This type of weather makes me grumpy and hate anyone who crosses my path. “That driver is too slow! They didn’t turn at the correct angle! WHY IS THEIR FACE SO SCRUNCHED??? I hate the color of their shirt- HATE IT!”
My ears are stinging and my hands… my man hands still feel brittle and bruised from standing out there a minute longer than I could handle.
All comfort levels have been raped, molested and beaten down in pulps that will take a full day to recover before it can be accessed again.
I can see it from this window. Rain being carried sideways. Rain that isn’t quite freezing but not nearly warm enough where touching any part of your being isn’t ancient punishment.
It’s the perfect weather for the mood I’m currently in, or perhaps it created it. Whatever the reason, it doesn’t matter. My brain is still replaying the news of the young man who shot a bunch of people outside of a night club (that I used to go to when I was a teeny bopper) and killed two girls… most of the victims were foreign exchange students- which irks me even more. It was random, there was no motive- perhaps it was because the guy was unemployed. Who knows.
I grew more irate when I saw several similiar stories that were draped across our country on the same news site. We’ve always had sick people in America. Cannibals, serial killers, mititant terrorists etc. We see mothers often killing their in various ways- all brutal, families being murdered by the ‘trusted’ parent, classmates being slaughtered by classmates… why is this a shock to me?
Do I see it as the beginning of things to come? All around me I hear peoples hours being cut back more and more causing desperation and depression. Jobs being axed and nothing new on the horizon. Good way to cattle people up in the military if they’re physically able? Who knows.
This weather sucks and I’m in a foul mood.
Friday I was stoked to get off work early- YAY… less than half a day!!! Well, while attempting to leave- my theft system went off twice in a row, keeping me stranded in the parking lot until it decided I wasn’t trying to steal it. Then yesterday while I was fueling up the car… it went off AGAIN, prompting the mindless gas-station attendant to try to fill up my car twice. THEN… today it yet again locks me out during another ‘time is crucial’ moment.
Weather, shootings, layoff’s, depressions… I HATE GEORGE W. BUSH, and if I hear one more person utter “I just hope no one tries to shoot at Obama” I’m going to punch them in the mouth! Shoot at him? Why? Just because of the color of his skin??? “Yes” OMG I hate white people. “You’re white” Screw off.
Current Mood:
Aggravated
I feel much better now that I’m thawed.