Dare I write down my true thoughts here? Dare I open myself up for reprimand because I voice myself on my own site? Prithee, what will happen should I have an independent opinion.

I fear the scolding that comes along with showing my concerns. It doesn’t seem to matter which sector of my life I’m referring to as people from all different areas seem to take offense. My time, surroundings and preferences can be molested and if I dare pipe up, I’m scolded. Me, a grown woman who has managed to live independently for over half of my life. I’m supposed to be a good little girl in the presence of others and not gripe or feel bent out of shape when people bully their agendas on me. Well I suppose I do have a choice- [censored]

The past week has definitely challenged me, hell the past month has. The shocking reality that if I vent- [censored] …(I’ll just say I [censored]…- that’s it…). Rather than realizing you’ve been there for [censored].

[censored]… Damn them all to hell! I hate polyester.

That coupled with a flu shot that kicked my ass, psychotic gnat [censored], a friend who was supposed to [censored] (I guess I haven’t learned the art of gracefully being truthful), and then I’m still adjusting to the damned [censored] are paid. Thank goodness I don’t own a credit card?

GAH! I don’t even want to know what’s next.

Okay, I’m breathing. I will plaster on a smile and hope no one looks at the scgrowl in my eyes. I will focus on Jonathon, get into the mind frame to write happy or at least interesting things, enjoy my friendships with those who are sane, train my betta, play my video games, read my books and watch my films while trying to gain some of my wacky goofy energy back as Lara Croft needs another dating adventure SOON.

But as for [censored], [censored] can [censored] in [censored] and I hope [censored] because [censored].

Current Mood: Angry

It’s become a habit recently when I get Jonathon off of the bus, “April BABY!”

Comic Con in NYC 2008! Birthplace of Gotham City, Spidey web slinging action and Tiffany and Co!

Yesterday right before my battery died in my camera, I popped in the Spider-Man games trying to find the Javits convention center and the hotel we’re staying it. Spider-Man 3 didn’t have it, but Spider-Man 2 totally kept us from being lost!

I needn’t worry about though as I was assured we will be picked up and delivered to the hotel by a true visionary. A master mind genius who will not get us lost. I will not be destined as a bag lady wandering the streets of NYC with a shopping cart full of cans and screaming “I AM a lady!” Not that there’s anything wrong with that…

COMIC CON! All the creative juices from all industries coming together in a huge mental orgy of collaboration, news, and inspiration! While Jonathon is hub nubbing with his heroes I will take notes for my Manga adventures of Nekura Akegata. Ah hell, I’ll be too busy feeling his excitement I won’t be able to take notes.

SO many people have contributed so far in money, support and well wishes, including Midtown Comics in NYC who are providing two nights of hotel stay right near the convention center.

I’m still pinching myself as the reality of all this happening is NOT feeling real! Jonathon has been through SO much, inspired SO many people and has been my soul for SO long that I’m in tears just grasping that his dream is coming true.

ACK! APRIL!!! I think we’re going April 16th – 20th… OMG ACK!!!!!!!!!!! AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! AWESOME TIMES TEN SQUARED INFINITY.

Well I’ve had a very long day of the good, bad and the ugly, so I’m calling it a night while I’m still on my NYC high.

Start spreading the news, Im leaving today (actually it’ll be April)
I want to be a part of it – new york, new york
These vagabond shoes, are longing to stray
Right through the very heart of it – New York, New York

I wanna wake up in a city, that doesnt sleep
And find Im king of the hill – top of the heap

These little town blues, are melting away
Ill make a brand new start of it – in old new york
If I can make it there, Ill make it anywhere
Its up to you – New York, New York

New york, new york
I want to wake up in a city, that never sleeps
And find Im a number one! top of the list, king of the hill
A number one

These little town blues, are melting away
Im gonna make a brand new start of it – in old new york
And if I can make it there, Im gonna make it anywhere

It up to you – New York, New York

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This is why apartments should allow dogs I’m trying to make the most out of having a new betta for a pet.

It actually started last night. I’ve had a week of pulled muscles, pinched nerves; basically an over all senstation of feeling sprained. It’s not a huge deal as it typically happens when I’m out with the boy and I accidentally move the wrong way when lifting him in and out of the car.

In addition to this and perhaps the pain being the root cause, I’ve had insomnia… BIG TIME. Last night I took some Tylenol PM with a glass of wine and went to bed shortly before 11 because when that ten minute window of feeling TRULY tired is there, you don’t skip it (I guess I really don’t need to recall every little thing). Anyway. I had a bowl of cereal earlier that evening while I was wearing my black lounge pants, a black t-shirt, and my hair was in a pony tail. HGTV was sounding on the television and the temperature outside as approximately 54 degrees with scattered showers.

25 cars probably passed by my patio that evening… a few SUV’s, a bicycle… dog, a couple pedestrians… Okay around 11 I figured I’d turn in as my eyes had been doing the sleepy watery thing for a little over an hour despite my legs and body feeling completely active. FINALLY everything felt perfect for falling asleep.

I finished teaching my Betta fish to dart up to the surface, do fishy kisses with me and then dive and plop on the rocks. It’s adorable! The next time I feel like it I’ll try to capture it on my Flip Camcorder.

Off to bed I went. As I went to lay down, I felt myself roll towards the center (I have a King sized mattress so there’s a little bit of room when I roll). It felt like it was sagging! I went to lay on the other side of the bed… back to the center again I went. OMG! I was sooooooo tired that I just remained where I was at and decided to be depressed about it in the morning.

It’s a Serta, it’s not supposed to sag! I knew I gained a couple of pounds, but not THAT much! Is it the end of my mattress??? I popped a water pill at work and pouted as I questioned my weight and it prompting my bed to give in to it.

So while that was heavily sitting on my mind, a friend had returned from NYC after a weekend holiday there. Hearing about the experience had my other friend discuss her experience. I was feeling excited, and frugal (OMG 18 dollars to ride an elevator up the Empire State Building? The planes weren’t shooting at King Kong because he was threatening, he just didn’t pay for the view). I’m cheap, I can’t help it.

Aside from gasping at the twenty dollar bottled water and everything else that came attached with a price tag, I viewed the main NYC transporation site and almost passed out. Jonathon and I may not meet up with our friends there until a day after we arrive! WE’LL WIND UP LOST FOREVER! All these thoughts of us getting swallowed by the city flooded my head! I asked my friend if it would be wise to hook up a GPS device to Jonathon’s wheelchair- or if all fails I could bring one of the Spider-man 3 games as I’ve web slung in all four games and if I were mid city level, then I could probably find my way around. Michelle suggested a tour guide/map. Yeah- that sounds a little too logical and I’m not familiar with a real map… just the Marvel maps provided in the game.

When I got home I mentioned this to Jonathon and he gave me that look like “Oh please it won’t be a big deal”. I asked him what he suggested and he replied, “We’ll just bring the Spider-Man games, duh.” Heh. Smart like his mama.

After we figured out how to save ourselves from never being seen or heard from again, I went into my room to look at my mattress.

Ugh. It was visibly sagging! I don’t weight THAT much!!! I went to flip the mattress and noticed that the frame came apart. “Ooooh that’s right, I was trying to find my lucky rock and went to move the bed, it must have come apart then…”

I put the bed back together and the mattress is once more nice and firm! Now to get my butt to follow suit so the next time the bed sags it really won’t be due to me!

AG Labs brings you the latest in robotics

Introducing the DAWN5000 Advanced Model

Capabilities:

1. Collates and sorts data.
2. Manipulate databases.
3. Makes decisions and thinks so *you* don’t have to!
4. Find and eliminate Sarah Conner.
5. Novel solutions to your data sorting methodologies implementing the
new Six Degrees paradigm.
6. Now comes Hoodie equipped!
7. Vilifies and then exterminates our northern neighbors.

Requirements:

The DAWN5000 requires an environment that is rich in coffee and pizza.
Cubicles, while not welcome are a current necessity. While the DAWN5000
does not require an external power source, a recharge rate of at least
six hours of down time a night in conjunction with one 2 hour length DVD
or a similar time with direct access to a modern gaming system are
recommended.

Please do not expose the DAWN5000 to direct sunlight, squirrels or
amphibious life forms for extended periods of time. -Arsgeek