August, 2007

Sunday, August 19th, 2007

Saturday Night Yawn

Flava FLAV!It’s Saturday night and I’m trying to figure out whether or not to go to bed or see what’s playing on Netflix. I think that I read they’re going to make it Mac friendly- I operate on Windows so this doesn’t effect me, however my homies love the apples and aren’t able to view the “Watch Now” feature. Good news if what I read is true, otherwise forgettaboutit.

 I watched Alpha Dog earlier and I think I’ll give it a good three stars. Maybe four. I’m undecided. Can’t you feel my love and enthusiam tonight?

Later last week it was brought to my attention that we might be attending Comic-Con in NY come April. Just the THOUGHT has me completely excited. If it’s a reality, it will totally make my year… and Jonathons. He couldn’t stop squealing… or maybe it was me squealing, we were both squealing. Him for possibly meeting Stan Lee, me for possibly getting a chance to kick Stephen King in the shins (kidding, please don’t alert security).

I’m watching Flavor Flav Casting for Season 3. I think it’s an ego boost thing. I don’t know. That and there’s absolutely nothing else on. FLAVA FLAV! His roast was also on earlier. Nothing was said that I hadn’t already thought about the man- sans the compliments. Why do I watch? Boredom. Masochistic tendencies. Potential underlying mental disorders that I should possibly have looked into. Does anyone take Cigna?

Now the Pick Up Artist is on. I’m giving a play by play of what I’m doing- because I can. I’m also thinking that this makes a great alibi. “Look at my blog- I was no where NEAR Berlin the night of August 18th, 2007.” I was home in Salem, Oregon being bored out of my skull. I hope the fact that I mentioned Berlin doesn’t link me to any crimes.

Comic-Con 2008. OMG! I’ve got to get a picture with the Dawn creator should he be there. I don’t even if know if I have a picture with the original Dawn creator (my mother) at least within the last ten years. That’s a little sad. I should track down my mum and take a pic. I also have to get those steel toes shoes… for ummm… just in case a stand collapses? Does that sound good?

I’m STOKED! I need to get a mini recorder for interviewing as I don’t see myself standing there frantically writing things down… or bringing a lap top “I’m sorry, can you please repeat that… my Word doc froze up and the “s” seems stuck.”

Alright, I’m going to sign off for now and see how these males progress in their quest to talk to a girl without vomiting.

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Monday, August 13th, 2007

Film, faux music, breakfast and the pursuit of something soft

disturbia.jpgI’m in disbelief that it’s Monday already. I’m not ready. I don’t WANT it to be Monday and I can’t trick myself into thinking it’s merely Sunday and I happen to be working. Therein lies the issue: I do not want to be up this early. I do not want to be at work. My weekend was too short and I still have slothing to do.

Friday night was bittersweet. I took someone’s personal character attacks about me. Say what you will about your interpretation of how I behave- judging etc., but do not assume things about my character or intent. I strongly feel that not all people are created to get along. I know factually that there are MANY types of personalities that I don’t care to be around or involve in my life. If I stress how I feel about a certain interaction and I find it falling short of what I can allow in my life- I am not going to continue with it as I do not believe you are forced to have anyone in your life.

I do have a tendency to point out the flaws in a picture and say, “Fix this with me or throw it away.” There is choice and option. Obviously this does not go over well with a lot of people and it’s misunderstood. I wind up coming across as cold. That’s not my issue. I’m willing to compromise or work on something, but not at the compromise of what ultimately makes me tick. I will not die if something doesn’t work out and it will not consume me until my dying day.

Anyway, that was pretty much my early Friday evening. I listened to the character attacks. I said, “Okay, that’s enough- you’ve vented and it’s understandable. To go further and force me to listen to bashings about who you think I am- no one deserves that so stop. Write a letter to me and discard it if you’ve more negativity to get off your chest.” I left it at that and went on with my evening.

I played some Guitar Hero II, actually a lot of Guitar Hero II and at what I thought was going to be the end of my evening… a friend called who went from Arizona to LA for a party and apparently it ended rather early. I stayed up and talked until almost 3 in the morning. OUCH. Once it goes into the single digits after midnight, I’m accustomed to being in a very deep sleep.

Once morning mocked me awake around 8am (my bedroom window faces East and I had the blinds up). I slowly stirred and began my day… slowly… painfully. It was hell. While my coffee was brewing I decided to check e-mail. No internet connection. I was shut off.

Wonderful. This wouldn’t be a huge issue if I had a cell phone or if my landline wasn’t Vonage (requiring internet access)! Well in my home, although I rarely talk on my phone (with the exception of my sis once in a blue moon, a friend from work when she doesn’t go to sleep at an ungodly early hour! or a friend bored in L.A.) a phone is needed due to my sons medical condition.

ACK! It’s still pretty early in the morning- a Saturday morning that is. The weekend hours have completely different meaning than work weekdays. 6am on a weekday morning is an acceptable time to wake up albeit painful still… but I get up at 5:40am every morning. 8 am, although a little early is a reasonable time to call someone… and 9 am is unfathomable as to why anyone would NOT be awake.

By the time I drank my coffee and got my head cleared, it was 9 am. On a Saturday morning 9 am is a forbidden time to go knock on one’s door. I chose to wait until ten am and then proceed with mission: Find a Phone. It was a horribly bright, energetic day. The Harley Shop on the corner was already begining a concert, yard sales were thriving with customers, traffic was in full force and to think anyone was still asleep wasn’t a realistic thought. I live in freaking Salem Oregon- not the largest town on the map, but it was buzzing this day.

I first went over to a friends place who lived a block away South. The car was there… no “extra” cars if you know what I mean… I knocked… knocked… knocked… I looked down to the car where Jonathon was and heard him say, “Let’s go back and just try the neighbors!”After five minutes I give up and leave and then head a block North from where I live to Ash’s. A couple is the next drive way screaming as they’re working on the truck “My freaking legs are too freaking short to hit the brake that fast!” Anyway, the same fate as the first place was met at Ash’s… no answer.

I go ahead and drive to the stores/gas stations that lined the main road. No phone… no phone… phones!!!!- but they are smashed… no phone.  All of a sudden I pay attention to people driving by me in cars… they were ALL talking on cell phones. UGH!!!!!!!!!!! I go back home and try the neighbors… no answer… no answer… no answer. All the cars are there and no one is answering their door. It’s now after 11! What the hell?

Jonathon decides that everyone disappeared like in a horror movie. We make our rounds again as I thought, “Well maybe people will be up now because the knocking stirred them out of sleep and now they’re up for the day.” Nope, that wasn’t the case. Jonathon thinks pretty hard and as I am sure he’s going to come up with a solution or idea to help out, “They didn’t disappear… they just don’t like you!” I glared with one eye and discovered the apartment office was open. YAY!

The office is very little and I had to speak to my Comcast rep with all ears on every word I was saying- watching the snickering from the corner of my eye as my frustrations with giving my information over the phone again and again… after making it through all the stupid prompts was amusing.

Operation Phone was successful. Although my service was only down a few hours, it was still sinking to discover that I did not miss any e-mails or phone calls (“What if EVERYONE decided to write or call?!”) <-that was not the case.

I was still slightly on a mission high, so I decided to create a new one. Operation: Find Movies. Jonathon wanted to see TMNT again and I wanted to see Disturbia. I logged onto Redbox and went through all locations trying to find one box that had those titles available. It was like playing again due to the quick drop off/pick ups by people and having the site update the transactions. Once I found it at a location, I’d go to reserve it… damn… too late. I’d click on another… not there… not there… YES! I found TMNT at spot 10 miles away… AND they seem to have Disturbia, however each time I go to reserve it, an error comes up. It doesn’t matter though, I’ll get it when I get there. 

The boy and I head downtown and find the Redbox. TMNT is dispensed, but no Disturbia :-( I wound up with The Hills have Eyes 2. Yeah, the latter wasn’t something I really cared to see, but it was a movie and I had a promotional code for a free rental. Might as well get it as I had accidentally seen the remake two weeks prior.

Mission: Find Film was still in effect. I didn’t want to go to Hollywood video as the chances of them having anything in stock is just not going to happen. It’s a pain to go there, the prices for rentals are too high and they’re not trying to get with the rest of rental stores.  Hollywood Video: Not an option any more.

We did watch TMNT Saturday and I didn’t get around the THHE2. I figured it was a free, if I watch it on Sunday night then having to pay an extra buck won’t be any big deal.

The mission was placed on hold as the remainder of Saturday was lightheated and relaxing followed by me deciding to go out for breakfast for the first time in two years. Although I had already fed Jonathon prior to my craving of bacon, hashbrowns, and eggs, he really didn’t mind having an extra meal.

The excitement of finally noticing Disturbia was returned to a Redbox insanely close by… there isn’t much to tell. I clicked online after returning from breakfast and going back and forth as to whether or not I wanted a wading pool :( (I didn’t get one) anyway- it was there and I reserved it.

Disturbia was pretty good. Synopsis: Kale (Shia LaBeouf) was driving back home with his father after a fishing trip, and then all of sudden he is involved in an accident when he crashes into a parked car which results in losing his father. After his father’s death, Kale becomes withdrawn and suffers from depression. His rage in the classroom causes him to be sentenced to 3-months of home arrest. An ankle bracelet is put on Kale’s leg to keep track of him. He must stay within 100-feet of the house, or a signal is sent to the police that he has left and they arrive in minutes to arrest him. He would then be sent to a real prison to serve his time. Kale is bored with playing video games and watching cable, so he turns his attention to his neighbors. With some surveillance equipment from a friend, Kale begins to spy on all of his neighbor’s movements and discovers what everyone is really doing in suburbia. Lucky for him, a beautiful girl named Ashley (Sarah Roemer) has just moved in next door. Since he is not allowed to leave the house and talk to Ashley, he must desire her from afar. With his cabin fever, Kale’s imagination might get him into trouble when he begins to believe that his creepy neighbor Turner (David Morse) is a serial killer from Texas. Douglas Young (the-movie-guy)

So think a modern age Rear Window- and then get that out of your head. Shia LeBeouf gave a watchable performance as a teen dealing with death, his relationship with his frustrated mother, torments from the neighbor kids, and convincing his friend and his new obsession he’s not insane. 

I was startled a few times and screamed outloud dispite viewing this at four in the afternoon… the fright carried with me as I sat outside for a minutes w/my feet in a large metal bucket (I really want a wading pool) and I looked down to find a bee staring up at me that landed on my tummy. I SCREAMED- and then had to shout out, “Just a bee folks… it’s alright.”

Once evening was in full swing, I decided to once more tackle my “Where do I put my computer” issue that I will write an article for AG about… once I figure it out, and then I popped in The Hills Have Eyes 2.

I’m just going to say, “It’s never going to end.” This was your typical run of the mill horror flick with the bad acting and the bad dialogue and the bad… everything. The Hills may have eyes, but it lacks intelligence, delivery, a decent cast and a watchable story.

Operation Find Film is completed as well as Operation Phone. My next mission: Operation Wading Pool.

Friday, August 10th, 2007

I Know Who Wants to be a Superhero!

Feedback, and he did it!

In the back of my apartment there is a room filled with superhero posters, action figures ranging from two inches to three feet tall. In that room resides a young man named Jonathon who I feel is a role model for hero’s every where.

His teasing, taunts, hugs, and laughter can brighten any dark day or mind. His courage is epic and his spirits are always soaring. It brought me great pleasure when I told him that I would be interviewing Feedback for Arsgeek (Season 1 winner on Who Wants to be a Superhero). Not only that, but Feedback wants to talk with Jonathon directly and get his take on the new season.

The boy wrapped his arm around my neck and shouted, “I DON’T BELIEVE THIS!!! YAY!!!” His giggles and giddy behavior lasted until he shut his eyes for the night.

Last year we sat through each episode, rooting for Feedback and when it was announced that he won- Jonathon went into complete happy fits. The concept that he’ll actually get to talk to him is surreal and he delights in grasping the idea that it will be a reality.

As my own evening wound down and I made my way to my own bed, seeing the satisfaction on Jonathon’s face confirmed that there is good still left in the world.

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Thursday, August 9th, 2007

Love

It’s strange when you have your idea or notion of what love is. Romantic love. Something you think you’ve experienced, became soured on and yet you witness it. It doesn’t seem rehearsed, forced or a punishment.

Yesterday I was talking with my friends at work and they mentioned the “good morning” call that starts their day… even if it’s done minutes after departure. The evening communications/conversations and you can’t fall asleep until they say good night. There was love definitely in their eyes as they behaved like a woman does when she is loved.

My heart just sunk.

When a man is in love, there is no excuse to keep him away. He will be creative, inventive, and imaginative in order to be with her- no matter how far away. Millions of years of romance has not really changed. The woman needs to feel that his eyes are upon her. The excitement of him needing to hear her voice and hold her in his arms. There will be no doubts as to where the feelings are as they’re out in the open, they’re being experienced, they are unquestionable. She will reciprocate and the reward is phenomenal.

For a brief period in my life I remembered those calls in the morning as I sat in my desk at work. That wonderful feeling that kick started my day… and then a few hours later another call as my voice was still missed. Like clockwork. Morning, lunch and then rushing to see me after work as it was painful not to.

I felt vibrant, beautiful. I felt delicate and strong. I felt like my co-workers who stood before me.

It didn’t start out that way. I recall that person bugged me initially and rolled my eyes each time the phone rang. Soon it became oxygen to me.

Now it doesn’t matter as the person is an ugly memory, and someone I cringe at the thought of ever having been with- but my heart and soul still remembers those feelings of being adored, love and smiling at a picture on the desk.

No games or tallies of who did what when that determine how much affection or attention you’ll receive. No excuses that kept anyone away.  Total and complete respect of boundaries and privacy as you never questioned intent or if their mind was elsewhere as you should know it’s thinking about you because you’re thinking about them.

Remembering that missing piece has brought me down several levels.

There are people out there who don’t need, desire or require that in a relationship- but I’ve discovered that I’m not one of them. I deserve to be the mission. The “hell/high water” woman they go through to get to. I want to be the woman held at the end of the night because being without me hurts. I want to know I’m worth fighting for and braving anything to be with.

I’m sick of being the woman who sits alone night after night, even in a relationship with a non ringing phone, no one at the door and calls being unanswered. I’m tired of being the passive female who is graceful each time plans are dropped and changed- saying it’s okay and in reality feeling so NOT okay.

I guess I want to be the woman that a man writes a song in his heart about and plays it for her via his interactions.

This song always gets to me:

Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

And She will be loved
And She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

She will be loved (repeated)

Please don’t try so hard to say good bye.

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Thursday, August 9th, 2007

I’m SO Tired

Well last night I didn’t get a whole lot done. Guitar Hero and requesting interviews for AG.

My Guitar Hero status… it’s coming along. Soon I’ll have to up the difficulty level in order to put my ego in check. Currently Free Bird is playing inside my head.

For those unfamiliar with Guitar Hero- you get a plastic Gibson about a 3/4 of the size of a real one. Each fret is a color and when the song comes on that strolls down the neck of a guitar, you hit the frets accordingly in order to crank out some awesome tracks. You choose your character, go on tour, get paid for gigs in accordance as to how well you play… AND you get a tight ass from shaking your booty while you play.

You play a variety of music from Crue, KISS, Kansas to the Butthole Surfers. Dude, I’m telling ya it rocks. You get to be a rock star with out the perks, but you also get to be a rock star without the downfalls as well. It’s a great way to release your inner guitarist if you happen to be musically challenged.

When I finally laid my head on the pillow (I swear it before mid-night), I opened my eyes to discover that I had 15 minutes before the alarm sounded. I didn’t feel as if I slept at all!

My days are off right now. Due to taking PTO on Monday and working a partial day on Tuesday- Wednesday shocked me that I was already in mid-week and today feels like a Tuesday. I can believe that tomorrow is Friday… but it still has a “I’ve a whole week to go to get there” sensation to it.

I’ve no weekend plans and I don’t plan on having weekend plans. With certain aspects of my life I have thrown my hands up in surrender and I’ve grown accustomed to the silence once more… with the exception of the sound of AWESOME guitar!!!! ROCK N ROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Tuesday, August 7th, 2007

Guitar Hero

YES! Now that I have all the songs unlocked, I will NOT be stopped (thanks
Kevin
!)

Obviously the guitar has been dusted off and I’m Free Birding! ROCK N ROLL!!!!! AAAHHHHHH!! Thank you and good night! Once I get a PS3 and Rock Band I WILL BE THE NEXT J-POP SENSATION!!! =^_^=

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKSReoOUpnU[/youtube]

Tuesday, August 7th, 2007

Tracking Idiocracy

I have decided to take it upon myself to track the dumbing down of society- Starting with Redbox. Granted it’s a great idea for those who go out to grab a burger and decide to rent a flick at the last second.

Apparently these boxes are common place along the East Coast, and now they are invading the West.

WHY I find this to fall into the Idiocracy fear manifestation: It wipes out the need for a person to transact. I saw this as I walked into Hollywood Video the other day to rent a video game (the rental of video games equates the price of a new game). It was another case of a long winded conversation that was taking place before me. A confused customer speaking with a confused cashier over a very simple topic. “The freaking movie comes in on Tuesday.” (is what I felt like intruding into their interaction).

When it was my turn, the person stumbled through the drawers trying to find the game, placed it in the box and then struggled a little bit with the information given to find my account. “I don’t see you in here… what’s your name again?” – “It’s Dawn… phone number xxx-xxx-xxxx” -”Hmmm…” – “Are you typing in x or y?” – “Ooooh!!! Can you repeat the number again?”

Redbox is needed and will succeed because people are declining.

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Monday, August 6th, 2007

It’s Sunday and I survived a weekend of Hades.

Ever have one of those GIGANTIC headaches that disable you completely? I had such a headache that started actually mid-week, worsend on Friday, hit me massively all day Saturday and finally broke last night in the middle of the night. My neck, shoulders and back were having sympathy pains and I was trying to figure out WHAT the cause was so I could find the remedy. No pills could dent through the pain, no amount of frozen veggies I piled up on my body could ease the suffering… and then finally a little pink therapeutic pillow I had forgotten about cradled my cranium while I was watching Interstate 60 (excellent flick btw), and then BOOM- I’m human again. 

Mild suffering continued this morning as I was entering day two without coffee (I was in too much AGONIZING pain yesterday to run to the local market and get some), and now I’m brewing my second pot to put me in even more of a human status. 

Enough of my self complaining. Ben at AG was VERY sick all week, Michelle, my best work friend, was extremely sick as well, along with V-Bear. As for me, I think my “physical hell” could have stemmed from the cloudy/sunny inconsistancy, pms and the end of a very high stress week at work. 

My site agenda that I’ll do hopefully today and tomorrow will be a new page devoted to items that inch us further to Idiocracy and a market place for Watchie Talkies as I continue to get visitors who google that delightful product I’ve yet to own.

Stay Tuned!

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Sunday, August 5th, 2007

And it continues

It’s Sunday and I survived a weekend of Hades. 

Ever have one of those GIGANTIC headaches that disable you completely? I had such a headache that started actually mid-week, worsend on Friday, hit me massively all day Saturday and finally broke last night in the middle of the night. My neck, shoulders and back were having sympathy pains and I was trying to figure out WHAT the cause was so I could find the remedy. No pills could dent through the pain, no amount of frozen veggies I piled up on my body could ease the suffering… and then finally a little pink therapeutic pillow I had forgotten about cradled my cranium while I was watching Interstate 60 (excellent flick btw), and then BOOM- I’m human again. 

Mild suffering continued this morning as I was entering day two without coffee (I was in too much AGONIZING pain yesterday to run to the local market and get some), and now I’m brewing my second pot to put me in even more of a human status. 

Enough of my self complaining. Ben at AG was VERY sick all week, Michelle, my best work friend, was extremely sick as well, along with V-Bear. As for me, I think my “physical hell” could have stemmed from the cloudy/sunny inconsistancy, pms and the end of a very high stress week at work. 

My site agenda that I’ll do hopefully today and tomorrow will be a new page devoted to items that inch us further to Idiocracy and a market place for Watchie Talkies as I continue to get visitors who google that delightful product I’ve yet to own.

Stay Tuned!

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Wednesday, August 1st, 2007

I Did the Needful

The past week has been a little more stressful than normal:

  • This time of year the work load is a little heavier and more people jumping ship
  • Jonathon’s blood level was hitting both extremes w/his medication (too high/too low)
  • Ants invaded my castle
  • Feeling all kinda lonely

That pretty much was it. It doesn’t sound like a lot, but it really shorted me out. I took what energy I had and placed it carefully in all areas. 

I lacked the motivation to write as I was focusing on doing a site redesign for Arsgeek. In order to that I had to refamiliarize myself with the style sheets of WP. Sounds simple enough? Not at all. I tried to recreate my site exactly through the style sheets (6 different pages making up one page that you see) and there was always something tiny that threw me off. I figured by recreating my site via all the pages, I’d have a better understanding of what communicates to what and where… and the best placement for optimization for forms and drop down menus,

Everything looked great on my machine and I was stoked! I could finally go ahead with my ideas!! I get to work and felt the sting of disappointment when I opened the test page up here and it was all out of sorts. 

Back to the drawing board.

As for Jonathon, it was a constant trip to the lab to get his medication adjusted. The poor boy kept requesting for me to have my blood taken so they can give it to him as he was in fear of running out- no matter how much I explained it to him. “But Ashley saved blood for me when I had surgery!!” (he had a few blood transfusions and felt relief watching the bag of blood enter his veins- he thought it was his and they were giving it back per Ash’s demand)

I received a call earlier this week from the doctor stating he’s balanced! WOO HOO!!! He had been at dangerous levels of both extremes in a short period of time. It wasn’t making sense.

With the ant invasion… these aren’t the little piss/sugar ants in which you know WHY they are invading your home (a drop of juice on the counter or what not), these are big brown ants that are in all rooms… for whatever reason. 

Yesterday I finally got a hold of some spray and killed those suckers. Last night was the first night in a week I didn’t see ANY. It was starting to get scary- after I put Jonathon to bed I’d hear him scream. He’s unable to move, so he had to lay and watch them crawl up on his bed and onto his body- helpless. Ugh, a total nightmare come true.

I sprayed the hell out of his room and on the legs of the bed. 

I don’t know WHY they invaded- but hopefully they’re gone now.

As for work… ugh. BIG long jobs, dead lines, errors… having to call the offshore help desk that takes forever- while they were scratching their heads even after I suggested a resolution to the issue… I went ahead and did it anyway as it made logical sense to me. They were still scratching their heads… and in the meanwhile my manual fix worked, saved the day and 24 hours later they ping me to let me know they were still trying to figure it out.

IT GUY: I had asked the tech team to look into the issue but they have not come back to me on this
Me: Right- and I could not wait for an entire team of people to look into something that was obvious and had a quick fix, so I wound up doing it on my own hoping it’d work… and it did.  

I did the needful. 

Sooo… here I am back on track with it all. I’m HOPING I can churn out some decent articles for AG tonight as I won’t look into site redesign until the weekend (I don’t want to frustrate myself during the week).

Ants are gone, life is back on track and now I can see about letting some creativity out.

Good luck to ME!

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