Last week I just heard about the iPhone. Apparently there was big hype over this thing that missed my “things I don’t care about” radar (I like to know what I don’t care about). I quickly did some research on it and discovered the biggest flaw about this mini-laptop/phone… it seems to be a cute little gadget… if you don’t wish to make calls on it.

The frenzy over this little device has me baffled and at the same time wondering if I should go to school to become an optometrist. A tiny little handheld lap top… that picks up wifi… which continuously drops… a tiny little screen and tiny little buttons… please people… who is THAT important in which something like this is a “must have”?  It gives people even more reasons not to pay attention to the road whilst driving.

Personally, if I were into this type of thing, I’d wait until the second or third generation of the product as you know that the iPhone is going to be a joke once the next lines come out. Why waste the money? (I’m still feeling the sting of my console I was loyal to being obsolete now forcing me to buy a different one). 

Maybe I’m just really uncool due to my inability to jump on the gadget bandwagon. I had a cell phone for about a year in a half and then gave it, along with the remaining service away. I hated the dropped calls, not understanding what people were saying, having my text messages not go through which caused friction amongst my friends… and the obsession of the non-ringing phone that I carried with me when I’d take friend/boyfriend hiatus’s “I don’t want anyone to call, I’ve told people not to call… but WHY aren’t they ignoring my request and calling?!!?!” It did take mediocre pictures though…

I don’t have an iPod. I listed to my music on my consoles and computers. 

My television was purchased in 2004… 27″ Gotham looking thing… because it looks like a Gotham looking thing… no flat screen, no blah blah blah… 

“I’m a simple girl… in my simple world… keep your plastic… I want nothing drastic”

I have more important things to spend my money on like food and rent. 

Yes, I lovemy computers and I can’t imagine life without them- but only because it gives me a lazy creative outlet for writing and graphics which also are very simple. 

My DVD player is a must… and I think that’s it. TV, DVD, PS2, XBox, Computers and I’m a happy camper. Keep your silly iPhones, iPods, and thingamajiggers… I want none of them!!! Unless you buy it for me as a gift, then I’d think they were kind of cool.

It’s back to the drawing board again. At least this new rendition will be stable.

This fourth of July… I’m unsure how I feel about it. 

Jonathon and I spent the day hiding from the heat, playing board games and helping him write a letter to his crush “Mylie Cyrus” (aww) and in a way feeling a little happy that I managed to go a year… the first of the past three without Johnny popping into my life shortly before the fourth and creating enough dramatic hell that fittingly always winds up like a firework gone awry. I’ve no physical damage this year! Can I breathe easy now?

It’s not like it’s been difficult shunning him out of my life- it was actually quite easy. Banning and blocking him until the thought of him wasn’t even a passing thought. But I did wonder why this time of year has me feeling uneasy… well without fail there are certain times he’d just pop back in- Autumn (which last year didn’t happen) Winter (a letter managed to get through and I cut him off at the pass), and the beginning of summer… Free and clear. 

Bonnie/Clyde, Sid/Nancy… RIP

I began a new relationship not so long ago and it’s been confusing as hell as I have been in my mind set of NOT dating any one. Fighting it until surrender… and falling flat on my face.

I’ve no clue what’s happening, what’s going to happen, what I want to happen… I just want the drama to end and to just breathe.

There’s more to it though. Since I started to sleep eat in December, I’ve gone from a size 6 to a size 9 and only a few items of clothing fit me. A couple of months ago I picked up my old tried and true eating disorder tricks that started to work (bad bad bad) but then when I met someone, I quit doing that… and I’m back to the frustrating and humiliating night eating. I’ve learned it doesn’t matter whether or not I’ve nobody in my bed. 

I’ve NO idea what the issue is as Jonathon is long gone out of the woods, but the sleep eating continues. My weight continues to climb although my daily food intake is borderline torture. 

Back to 4th of July… one of the things I do love about where I live is that I can see all fireworks across the freeway complete with sound from the safe, uncrowded view from my porch.

Happy Independence Day everyone (from the US). Happy Wednesday to everyone else.

It’s hot and humid out and the only redemption for a day like today would be a decent swimming hole. I must do that soon, but fourth of July afternoon is no time to just wander over to a piece of nature that’s currently crawling with a bazillion people.